Must have only slept 2 hours cant stop thinking about you mam i miss you soo much it hurts. Still hoping wishing and praying i can wake up and all this be a bad dream and you will still be here. Ive never felt soo lost in all my life without you. The second you left us part of me went with you. Ive finally done it mam changed my ways i hope your looking down on me and i hope im making you proud. Me ashley and aunty karen having been working hard on your flower garden too hope you like it and your sunflowers. I still dont understand why why us? why you? Ill never understand it or get it. Hope your finally chilling and resting with your feet up now because you was never stopped from the time you woke up until the time you fell asleep when you slept cause you always had your phone in your hand. You were my hero my mother and my bestfriend the one i looked upto all my life. The strongest woman ive ever known you went through hell and back and still kept your beautiful smile you went above and beyond to protect us. The day you grew your beautiful angel wings i didnt just lose my mother i lost my mother my father and my bestfriend. My whole world fell apart before my eyes and now i dont know what to do where to turn of all the things you taught me you never taught me how to live without you and thats the hardest part. If god granted me one wish my only wish is to have you back. Its your turn to rest now shine bright sleep tight my beautiful angel. Love you with all my heart and i miss you endless amounts mam. It will never ever be a goodbye only a ill see you later 💔💛💛